So, how are we doing?
Well, I haven’t lagged off entirely, but I have to tell you, I have been letting a few things go. I don’t get delight in every day right now, and I should. There are several times when I should stop doing something because I don’t want to, or I should do something because I want to, and I’m not doing that. That has got to stop, so I’m working on doing more of those emotional check ins.
It’s really easy to sink back into goals when you are goal oriented. Don’t let yourself do it.
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I feel tired a lot. I wonder if my thyroid med dosage is too low, or if I’m not getting enough sleep (sleeping like a rock when I do sleep, but I get up awfully early), or if I’m just not re-energizing myself with creativity and delight enough. I’ll watch this situation, try focusing on delight and creativity, and if there’s not improvement, talk to my doctor. I’ll wait until the summer, because once I’m out of school, well, I won’t be getting up so early, and I can tell it’s sleep dep.
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Meditation/Deep Breathing? Not every day. Bad Catherine. No cookie. When I feel the need, I do. I *am* practicing mindfulness. Not too scattered on the tasks. So that’s something.
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Creativity? Just got two stories off. Frustrated this week, like I knew I would be, because work is pretty much ON this week. It’s just a week. Gotta keep that in perspective. Then it’s back to getting the real writing done.
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So. I’m healthier than I was before therapy, still, but not as healthy mentally as I was when I left. I think living in the moment and just doing what I want would help.
