Psychological Check In

So, how are we doing?

Well, I haven’t lagged off entirely, but I have to tell you, I have been letting a few things go. I don’t get delight in every day right now, and I should. There are several times when I should stop doing something because I don’t want to, or I should do something because I want to, and I’m not doing that. That has got to stop, so I’m working on doing more of those emotional check ins.

It’s really easy to sink back into goals when you are goal oriented. Don’t let yourself do it.

***

I feel tired a lot. I wonder if my thyroid med dosage is too low, or if I’m not getting enough sleep (sleeping like a rock when I do sleep, but I get up awfully early), or if I’m just not re-energizing myself with creativity and delight enough. I’ll watch this situation, try focusing on delight and creativity, and if there’s not improvement, talk to my doctor. I’ll wait until the summer, because once I’m out of school, well, I won’t be getting up so early, and I can tell it’s sleep dep.

***

Meditation/Deep Breathing? Not every day. Bad Catherine. No cookie. When I feel the need, I do. I *am* practicing mindfulness. Not too scattered on the tasks. So that’s something.

***

Creativity? Just got two stories off. Frustrated this week, like I knew I would be, because work is pretty much ON this week. It’s just a week. Gotta keep that in perspective. Then it’s back to getting the real writing done.

***

So. I’m healthier than I was before therapy, still, but not as healthy mentally as I was when I left. I think living in the moment and just doing what I want would help.

Getting in Shape: End of Week 23

Well, I am skipping Weight Watchers this week in lieu of seeing some friends. So, those stats will remain for another week. However, bad news on the Wii front.

Beginning Wii Weight: 223.8 (My heaviest ever after this summer.)
Wii Weight on 3-25-14: 206.1 (a gain of 1.7)
Total: 17.7 pounds LOST

Weight Watchers on Initial Weigh In: 224
Weight Watchers on 3-25-14: 208 (a loss of 1.2)
Total: 16 pounds

What’s happening here: I went to Portland and came back weighing the same, BUT I kept eating badly and not paying attention to what I was eating. I would start over again next week, was the message in the back of my mind. I continue to be loosey-goosey with points, and again, no exercise in the world can countermand that.

What’s new: Exercise. The Wii Fit Meter and I have decided to burn 563 calories a day, based on my current efforts, and my intended weight loss. That’s like double exercise, which is what I said I was going to try. Also, this week is registration week at work, which, frankly, gives me no time for creativity. I’m tired all the time, working with a sleep deficit from the conference, and not too happy at the moment. David would be unproud, so I will try to change that, but that always has an affect on weight loss and eating habits.

What’s going to change: I have already figured that if I work out the Wii required calories, and I divvy up my Weight Watchers extra points, I have 44 program points a day. That’s huge, and yet, I can eat over that if I don’t pay attention (which might account for my weight problem.) So, here are the new food rules.

1. No extras. If you haven’t counted it, you don’t eat it. Even sniglets of cookies, one pretzel, etc
2. No eating after 7. You’ve been falling back into the snack habit. Drinking, yes. Eating? No.
3. Because you eat out so much, you need to think about ways to cut back on food when you eat out. Each eating out meal costs you an average of 22 points, which is not good. I would suggest making a healthy snack and eating it before you go out to eat, and then cutting back on what you eat. Let’s give this a try.
4. Keep working out as you are. I know it’s time consuming, and it’s no fun sometimes, but healthy writers live a longer time to write when they are done working.

So, I’ll check in next week. This, ladies and gentlemen, is called accountability. I knew that we’d get to this point eventually, and I would need to be in a public forum to keep going. Otherwise, it’s easy to skulk away.

Let’s keep it in perspective. I’ve lost some weight. I need to do more if I want to lose more. Health-wise, it’s helped the knee, the breathing, the stamina, and the reflux. I will only feel healthier if I lose more. Not a vanity move here. 🙂

Keep stepping!

What I’m Enjoying, Right Now

Time for something completely different. What am I enjoying right now?

1. My husband. While I always enjoy Bryon, recently he’s been particularly considerate and charming. I’m also proud of his abilities to make and craft things that I could not begin to.

2. Licorice tea. I used to hate licorice tea, but now I’m enjoying it, and threatening to sip away the entire department supply.

3. Russian gingerbread. A particular weakness, but only about 60 calories a round, and oh so good.

4. Being dry. I love Portland. It’s one of my favorite cities, but it is damp. My last two days in Iowa, my feet have been dry. Methinks that’s going to change today, however.

5. The Wii Fit meter. My weight loss has stopped for more or less the last two months, but the Wii Fit meter acts like a personal trainer. We’re supposed to burn 536 calories a day now. Of course, watching what we eat with Weight Watchers continues.

6. My new belt. I have lost so much weight I’ve had to get a new belt. It has skulls all over it, not exactly work dress, but pretty subtle so only those in the know can see my rebellion against The Man.

7. Having several writing projects to get out. I’ve just sent out two short stories. I have a novella to revise, a short story to finish modifying, and another short to produce from scratch. Also, I have a novel I’m working on. Rather than feeling overwhelmed, I’m feeling good about being productive.

8. Cooking at home tonight. Cheeseburgers made with lean ground beef, 2% Colby Jack slices, and low cal buns. Oven fries, (shoe string potatoes baked in the oven, covered with a little oil and Spanish paprika.) Maybe some sliced mango for dessert.

I hope you are all finding things about the day that you enjoy? Feel free to share.