What I have learned today:
1. I need to be mindful of what I’m doing when I’m doing it. I don’t need to worry about the future or ruminate about the past. I need to breathe, and I need to remind myself of what it is where I’m at, right now.
2. I need to live now, not live for some point in the future. (As in I am HERE for you.)
3. I should stop writing should statements. 😀
4. I should also develop a sense of humor about myself.
5. Mistakes are cool. Try some out. And be okay with them. (AAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!)
6. Look at all the cool things I am. And shut down the negative talk. (Oh, the Midwest culture doesn’t like this one. At all. But I promise. My bragging blog. Just to prove to myself I can. Sometime soon.)
7. No longer will I feel guilty for not doing what I think I should be doing, or not finishing what I think I should be finishing (work in progress here. Seriously. Work in progress)
7. Think about how good I feel when I’m taking care of myself.
8. Tell people no when I don’t really want to do what they’re asking.
9. Don’t be afraid to come out about fear and weakness. This is called being human.
10. Evaluate and prioritize each day, realistically, and experience each day realistically. It’s okay to have a general structure for a week, but realize that this is sort of a guideline, not a rule (got that one out of The Pirate’s Self Help Book for Scurvy Feeling Knaves).
11. Keep my appointments with myself for meditation, exercise, relationship time, and creativity. These are the things that matter, because these are my priorities. Work is like down there. (Work is important, but it’s something I’ve been caring about too much.)
12. Accept myself as I am now. This is who I am. I can have plans and effort to change, but I must love myself now. (How insincere this sounds now. This will be the hardest. Change and plans I can do. Acceptance and love…oh boy.)
13. Only I can change myself. Only me. (Hear me ROAR!)
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So, my assignment, should I chose to accept it, is to get my new priorities moving forward. I will probably be ruthlessly looking at what is important to me, and what is just noise that I’ve decided to take on. More of that soon.
This is terrifying. It is also kind of fun. You know, like that first hill of a roller coaster.
This homework will self-destruct in 30 seconds. Good luck, Cath.
