Crazy!

Well. The teacher life is just eating me up right now. I thought that things would get less hectic when I gave up the personnel management piece of my work, but instead, I have filled it with other things.

So...notable. My old laptop of six years died. I replaced it in the matter of a day, and the new one is working just as well. I've put a tangerine shell and an orange keypad cover on it, but otherwise it is remarkably the same. I lost about a day and a half of writing time updating the software.

I am among the athletically injured. Foot pain took me to the doctor, and because I have not been stretching, I have redeveloped my old friend plantar fasciiitis. No problemo. I switched to the exercise bike. Except I managed to destroy my right oblique muscles trying to climb around the cat in my plantar fasciitis brace on the couch. So now, I'm sort of taking today off, and seeing which one hurts less tomorrow. Hey, everything is better than yesterday, when I had major muscle conspiracy!

I will attempt to make a report on weight next week. The bottom line is that I'm still spinning around the same pound. That said, I might be going down a little. My new high isn't as high as my old high. More to come.

Gotta, gotta, gotta check some papers. So, see you laters.

Viable Paradise XIII: Five Years Later

For those of you not aware, this is Viable Paradise week. The 18th class of Viable Paradise is on Martha's Vineyard RIGHT NOW, joining our alumni. I can only hope that their experiences is as good as ours was.

It occurred to me that it might be good for people to see how graduates of the workshop fare. Heck, I'm curious. And I'm an academic, so I do things like this. Plus, I am in the lucky position to have kept in touch with my VP classmates for the most part. And it's our 5th anniversary, so that's a nice year number.

I sent out a call for some updates. Where are you now? I asked. How's the writing going? How's life going? How did you feel after VP?

And I received a lot of responses. I think I'm on tap to receive just a few more, because even though I'm posting this today, right now, the official deadline is today, so I could get some more by tonight.

Without further adieu, then, here are responses I've received. I've listed the names just in case you're looking for anyone in particular, and I'll update if/when I get more. This is a LONG document, so after the names, I'm cutting. Goooooo Fightin' Thirteen! And happy anniversary to the rest of our fellow workshoppers as well.

They're Here!

Bo Balder
Steve Buchheit
Chris Cornell
Sean Craven
Marion Engelke
Chia Evers
Robyn Hamilton
Kat Hankinson
L.K. Herndon
Matt Hughes
E.F. Kelly
Leah Miller
Darice Moore
Lisa Nohealani Morton
Julia Rios
Catherine Schaff-Stump
Ferrett Steinmetz
Miranda Suri

Stay Tuned

Brent Bowen
George Galuschak
Irina Ivanova
Drew Morby
Brandi Tarvin
Christian Walter

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Mountains of Green

Popping in for a brief announcement.

My story Mountains of Green will be appearing in The Mammoth Book of Dieselpunk which is schedule for publication in July of next year.

For those keeping score, this is my first pro sale. That is a happy thing for me.

So, posting less here and writing more does seem to have dividends of a sort.

At any rate, more as I have it available.

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Meanwhile, I hope you all have a good weekend. I suspect mine will be spent checking papers since I have been in daydream land most of the day. :P

A Sliver Away, I Suspect

There's a lot of talk about breaking into writing, and then there's some talk about moving into publishing and agenting problems, but I find that I can reflect at this point about not only the cuspy part of writing, as I've come to consider where I've been, but also this new place I've wandered into.

There have been a couple of very PRESTIGIOUS near misses lately. Oh, I mostly get near misses these days. We liked your story, but (fill in reason) here. It is the unusual magazine that sends me a form. No, just recently, I have had a couple of what I would have thought of as Big Break magazines take me to a higher round, and then cut me lose.

Which I don't mind, because it's what I expect. My friend Lisa has this don't expect anything so when something good comes, it's a reason to celebrate approach to life, and while I find that's no way to live, I'm pretty certain it's a good way to survive becoming a writer. So, what does that mean?

I don't know what that means. I wrote a post a while back on not giving a damn about anything but writing stories and sending them out, doing what you can control. However, from an artistic point of view, there is something happening here.

First of all, clearly the quality of my writing is getting noticed more and more. We all like that, here on planet Iowa. Secondly, I'm finding that it is true, that the better you get at writing, the harder writing becomes for you.

Take for example, my most recent rejection: the story begins too late and ends too soon. I can see it. I can see it, but what I can't pinpoint yet is this: where is the right place to begin and end? Because this thing could stretch like a light wool sweater. Too much and it's ruined the sweater. Too little, and well, this happens. The problem is harder to fix now. This one loves the characters, the dialogue, the relationship. The point is that beginning and ending. Where should I crop the snapshot?

Or, I received a beautiful third round list of suggestions for a rewrite. They love all the things I do well in the story. Great characters and relationships? Check. Dialogue? Check. Setting and mood? Check. Plot and rationale for what happens? Not so much. And mind you, I can see it. I killed myself on the first rewrite, but I played to my strengths, and magnified the beauty of the things in writing I could do, but still had trouble with the fundamental things I often have trouble with.

How do I move toward now working on the things that do not come easily? Or how do I work with increasingly demanding editors and readers? Because I do want to pursue excellence in my writing, and I can see what is being suggested.

I'm working on a novel right now. Well, almost right now, as in back at it tomorrow morning. AND I begin to see these things in my novel, even without other readers. But I cannot, must not, self-edit at this point. However, the point is this: improving my writing is becoming more demanding, because I know more than I did, and I expect more of myself.

Which might explain those prestigious near misses. While I will always improve my writing, I am mastering those things I do well naturally, and have kicked those things up to a new level. It's like I tell my students about their papers: if this one thing is that good, then I want the other parts of your paper to be that good. So, these careful readers are telling me that they want my plot to be as good as my language, my complicated relationships, my dialogue, my well-rendered characters, my beautiful scenery. Because these things are good, they notice the flaw more.

That's good news. It means I have to finally make myself master the Achilles Heel of plotting that I've just tried to gloss over. That's not bad news, but that's the challenge. Such a challenge.

However, it's my damned writing. I will push harder and see where I can get.

Guest Post over at Josh Vogt’s

Josh Vogt has been running a series of articles about writers and fitness over at his blog, and he's posted my article today.

So, please feel free to go on over there and read the rest of "Playing Your Way to Fitness--Wii Do It!"

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As a kid, I hated PE. I hated the idea of running, jumping jacks, and dodge ball. In fact, if it had anything to do with physical exercise, I could be counted on to dislike it and be bad at it.

Funny how some things could distract me, though. I loved dancing. I would dance, and still will dance for three or four hours whenever there was an extended event. Dance lessons never seemed like a chore or workout. Key to my fitness pursuit, it seemed, was something that made me feel like I wasn’t in PE class.

Weighing In: Week 46

In late October, I will have been working on weight loss for about a year.

Here's the salient data at this point

Weight Watchers Beginning Weight: 224.8 pounds
(This is the highest weight I was ever at with WW, and now the weight they consider my starting weight, because I'm back at the center, rather than at work.)
Weight Watchers Current Weight: 205.6
Total Weight Watchers Lost: 19.2

Wii Weight Beginning: 223.8 pounds
Current Wii Weight: 203.7 pounds
Total Wii Weight Lost: 20.1 pounds

About the same. :) There are differences, of course, given times of day and wardrobe, for example.

Good stuff: Weight loss has not changed appreciably over the summer. This is also bad stuff, but it is not gaining anything back, so we will take it as a win.

Bad stuff: Still really inclined to eat things that are not good for me. However, the good part of this is that I am more willing to balance out an indulgence with exercise or cutting back the next day. We move in the right direction.

Really good stuff: Can climb stairs without being winded. Can dance for 3 hours straight. Walk a lot. Enjoy feeling more healthy. Hope this will spur me on to greater heights of healthy.

Wishes: That someone would make celery taste like chocolate, but still have no calories. :)

The Writing Process and Tobias Buckell

Here's Toby Buckell on his writing process. Jenga with a skyscraper indeed. Read on...

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Tamago: Do you have a regular drafting process, or does your drafting process vary from book to book? (If it varies, please keep one project in mind as you answer these questions.)

Toby: It varies from book to book, to be honest. But overall, and of late, I’ve turned toward a system of outlining as much as possible before I start the first chapter. As I write, I give myself the freedom to do cooler things than those indicated in the outline, but the outline is there for me to fall back on always.

I make notes as I go along, sort of a conversation with my future self. I make notes on future chapters, adding to the outline, or telling myself not to forget certain things. I also make notes on current or past chapters that will need additions as I go back to revisions. I do this quickly, so as not to interrupt flow and get stuck fiddling.

Tamago: Which part of writing--drafting, revising, critique from others--do you enjoy the most? Why? The least? Why?

Toby: I really enjoy the first draft the most. I love the act of creating the book for the first time, and bringing something totally new into the world. The excitement of pulling it all together really drives me.

For me editing is the part I enjoy the least. It’s also critical to the book, it’s where it gets polished into a finely cut gem. But it also paralyzes me with self doubt and fear, due to the fact that I used to struggle with drafts and make stories actively worse at the start of my career. I tend to be scared that I’m making a book worse. I also worry that each change made while drafting will have ripples and unintended consequences down the line. I feel like I’m playing Jenga with a skyscraper when I’m doing revisions.

Learning how to cope with all that to revise and revise my books into better shape has been really important. Even though I dislike that element of writing, it’s incredibly important.

Tamago: What is the longest it's ever taken you to complete a draft? The shortest?

Toby: The longest it’s taken me to write a book is two and a half years of sole focus. I’ve written a book on the side, for fun, over a three year span, but it was something I just wrote in between the gaps of a couple other projects that were under contract. The two and half year book was my second book. I kept restarting it, struggling to find the right energy and tone and voice.

The fastest I’ve written a book? Three months.

Tamago: Do you participate in a writing group, or do you walk your own path? Why do you choose the approach you do?

Toby: That’s complicated! I used to be in writing groups. I attended Clarion in 1999, and it was a big help in compressing the time spent fumbling my way along the curve to getting my work to publishable quality. I also attended the Cajun Sushi Hamsters from Hell workshop in Cleveland, driving 3.5 hrs there and then 3.5 hrs back once a month. I then switched to a nearer workshop in Columbus, Ohio. I workshopped a lot of my short fiction there.

About eleven years ago, when trying to figure out how to workshop our first novels, I joined a group of writers for the first Blue Heaven workshop, a 10 day workshop held once a year. Charlie Finlay created a model for how to workshop a novel, and I workshopped my first four novels at Blue Heaven and credit to taking me up to a whole other level of skill.

I am no longer workshopping as much. I still go to Blue Heaven, but the focus is less on workshopping individual books and more brainstorming all aspects of a career. And for me, an uninterrupted space of time to jam hard on writing.

I currently am writing without workshopping. I don’t think, by any stretch of the imagination, that I’ve mastered the novel. But I do feel comfortable continuing my experimentation and learning without instant feedback in this period of my career.

Will I return to workshopping? If things line up for it, I still find the quick, incisive minds of peers to be a way to get myself to aim higher and it’s been good for me in the past.

Tamago: How do you know when something you're writing isn't working?

Toby: That’s always a tough one. I can be frustrated and have a hard time writing something that can still end up working for a reader. I’ve learned that a tough time writing doesn’t equal a tough time reading. And something that was easy to write could be riddled with issues. It’s one reason I found workshopping beneficial earlier on is that it helped me get outside point of view on whether a story was working.

Now I tend to rely on instinct. Often writer’s block isn’t so much an inability to write, but your hindbrain trying to get you to notice something. If I find writing isn’t so much hard, but teeth-pulling hard and blocking me, I tend to stop what I’m doing and take a long step back. It’s usually my subconscious trying to tell me something. Instead of forcing it, I tend to ask myself ‘what’s my instinct trying to tell me needs fixed quick so we can get back into laying track.’ When I reframe block with that attitude, it helps.

Tamago: Has your writing process changed over time?

Toby: I used to write with less outline, more organized notes around a rough outline that got filled in ahead of me as I wrote. With each novel I’ve started to outline more and more. When I wrote my third novel, I’d had a lot of time to spend mulling it over before I started it. I found the words came rather quickly, as a result. And when some friends helped me outline in detail the last third, after I got to the point where I ran out of my own outline, the writing came easily again and I was quite delighted with the structure and pacing of the book.

Keeping that in mind, when I started work on Arctic Rising, I also was dealing with the after affects a heart defect had on my energy levels, so I had to work smart, not hard. So I created as detailed an outline as I could imagine to write the book. I don’t think I could have managed the book if it weren’t for that, as I was perpetually exhausted then.

For the last two books I’ve written, I’ve spent weeks before writing chapter one on what I would have considered in 2004 as utterly insanely, unnecessarily, detailed outlines. Everything I can imagine goes in them. The last one I wrote was a 15,000 word outline. It’s been really helpful.

Tamago: A great deal of your writing involves where you grew up. How important do you think it is for writers to use what they know, even when they write science fiction, adventure, and fantasy?

Toby: People from the Caribbean tell me that even when I’m not writing obviously with Caribbean elements they’re still in most of my stories. I think we’re always dealing with the things we have experienced and carry with us in a variety of ways, it’s just that I’m from somewhere different and it becomes a bit more obvious to people not from that same location. I used to think science fiction and fantasy was insanely exotic and wild on a lot more axes than I do now, because I wasn’t living in the US. Once I moved here I suddenly understood that SF/F authors were using hella amounts of cultural influence that they swim in, but don’t necessarily see. To me it seemed wild and out there.

What I think I do do, however, is try to investigate the invisible stuff around us because, having crossed over, I’m aware it exists and am always trying to interrogate it, pull it out and look at it. And I do tend to find it interesting when writers can look beyond their assumptions and begin to pull in more of that.

In case you think I’m full of crack, I recommend going back and reading a science fiction story written in the 1950s. Can you spot all the cultural assumption buried in it? Then realize that a lot of what’s being written now can look just like that to someone who’s *today* outside of that culture.

Tamago: What has been your favorite project to date? Why?

Toby: My favorite project is always my latest one! Or, to be more honest, it’s the next project I’m starting up. I am like a magpie, the new shiny is always the most exciting shiny. Sometimes it can be hard to be on tour and expected to talk about the last book that just came out. “What, that thing? I can do even better tricks now, and plus, I already read that thing, like, six or seven times over. Nothing surprising in there.”

I’m somewhat interested in having a long career so that someday I can look back several decades and attain some perspective. Because I don’t have it on my books.

Now I definitely have favorites in my short fiction. But I feel like a parent being asked ‘who’s your favorite kid?’ I mean, I put so much of myself into every project, and each one was the best thing I could make at the time, it feels like an insult to the me-that-was-writing-that-project to downplay it. He worked so hard!

Tamago: How much research do you generally do for your projects?

Toby: I saw a quote from a writer, somewhere, that said the writing of books was just to justify their horrible research addiction. I don’t think I can even quantify it, I’m constantly hoarding information that might fit in somewhere for some reason.

Tamago: Besides the big firsts (getting an agent, publishing your first novel), what moments have you had that made you think, "hey, I'm actually a writer?”

Toby: There are always baller moments where someone invites you to be a guest of honor, or to speak somewhere. Where your words have gotten someone excited enough to pay you to go somewhere you’ve never been. Those are nice for the ego, no doubt. But the bigger moments come from interesting mail that indicates you’ve had an effect on someone. People who tell you you’ve changed their life in some small, or non-small, way, that really gets me in the feels every time. I fell in love with words because they changed my life. To know I’m doing that, that makes me feel like I’m doing that same thing with my words that words did to me. And that is when I know, for sure, that I’m actually a writer.